behind closed doors and shower curtains

This weekend I went to Chicago, but not until saturday morning.  Then i picked up my girlfriend's keys at the front desk of her building, and waited in her apartment for her to come home from work.  Ate lunch, she napped and I was bored some more, and then walked around the neighborhood, dinner at a nice carribean place, and a dvd at home (big fish, it was good).  Yesterday was Navy Pier with the ferris wheel, and I didn't leave the city til after 9, so I got back pretty late, tired today and cafeteria cappucino made me queasy, so i left work at 415 and came home and did nothing.  I feel better, pot pies and wine for dinner seemed to do the trick.  I found out today at work that my name is being circulated for a job that's opening up, which usually requires a business degree and years of experience, neither of which I have.  It would be a huge opportunity, I'd get benefits and bonuses and my pay would go up at least 50%, and it'd open bigger doors later on down the line.
 
Unfortunately, if offered, I wouldn't be able to accept it.  It would mean staying in town for at least another couple years, and I don't think I'm going to be able to do that.  And I'm not sure of how much more of the insurance business i can really take, I'm sure it'd make me crazy in five years anyway.  I kind of debated all that in my head today, after I heard my boss was thinking about me for the job, and I guess I decided that the money and possible rewards down the line aren't worth spending another couple years working and being lonely the rest of the time.  I don't know if this is short-sighted on my part, or if I'm just compelled to sabotage my future in every way possible.  But this, if I would get offered the job, which I probably won't and all this thinking was for nothing, would be my first real opportunity, career-wise, after bouncing around aimlessly during and since college.  Turning my back on it would be the work of a crazy man.